Have you ever attempted suicide for real?

I'm sorry that you feel that way

I was depressed for like almost 10 years different levels of depression or so and it got worse and worse in 2010 and 2011, and in 2011 in October I think it was it came to the stage where I seriously thought that things could never change and that I didn't want to go on if they weren't.

Now I had had suicidal thoughts for years whenever something went wrong I would think to myself "I should just kill myself" almost like a tick but I never got to that stage where I actually thought that I would go all the way with it.

But when it finally did I decided to actually call for help about my depression cause I felt like I'm not gonna kill myself unless I at least give antidepressants a try or counseling or whatever.

And I got an appointment from a counselor and I got alot of baggage out and eventually started taking antidepresants and surely but slowly (very slowly) I started get my hope back again and slowly started to try to change my habits that were making me feel that way.

I learned to like myself and respect myself and that in term made me more likeable and respectable to others.

I've still had my setbacks from time to time of course but I'm definitly feeling alot better than I did then, maybe better than ever.

Laura's had a big impact on me as well for staying strong of course.

I think that you should look into seeing a counselor and taking antidepressants (if you're not doing that already) things really can change for the better I'm an example of that, it won't happen overnight and you have to do all of the work yourself but it's worth it. You're worth it .

Thanks, guys.